There might be too many judgements, but I am aware about my own realities

As and when I feel bogged down,  I realize that it's mostly a mixture of multiple things.  Sometimes it's a just a plain bad mood,  sometimes it's a kind of trigger,people in bad mood,  issues etc etc....  But what really bogs  me down is being judged negatively by people.  I am aware I am also Constantly forming judgements,  yes,  but then it's not to condemn or show someone down or feel better myself,  but to make sure I remain safe from people's moods or situations. More like a defense system. 
In all of this I realize the  poisoning attitude of judgement  itself. This factor kills possibilities, connetions and love.  Not necessarily always...  But it does. Being devoid of judgement is impossible.  For example...  I met someone new and I thought..  Hey,  what a pretty smile.....  OMG,  the man looks creepy! .... She looks like Lindsay Lohan (could be good or bad...  Who knows)..these are all judgements..  We are all a bag of judgements.That's that the mind does...
Here..  I remind myself..  That even though I formulate them  and sometimes stick to them, usually I am aware that it's a judgemental and the beautiful person in front of me is an amazing soul and part of my world. That... In my heart just makes him,  her and me...  All really good human beings. 

I Love who I am right now

As I sit whiling away my time in a lazy and in a little way, left loathing, an amazing thought struck me that left me really positive and very happy. Maybe this too will pass and I will have my wallowing days but this moment! this exact time is extremely precious and happy because at so many levels and in the midst of so many problems, I am genuinely happy and proud of myself. 

Every positive thing I have heard being said is amazingly true. 

Your happiness does not depend on anybody excepting yourself

Keeping your head held high in-spite of all odds

Love yourself

Be kind

Perseverance and love changes all

and so much more .... have just come together in my life right now and  have brightened it up with lots of positivity and happiness. 

I hear abuses, blames, sadness is around me, broken relationships and my own heart quite broken in many ways but in so many ways, I am able to stand right there hear all that, experience everything with a smile and still wanting good things for the person doing this all to me. Why am I doing all that? because I love them. All of them. The spineless, the unstable, the rude, the misunderstander, the pretentious and the aggressive.....all of them are just people who I totally love. I cant say I believe in them, but I can say that I do believe in myself and that I can take it all. In the process I am getting a bit crushed and battered, but I jump right back and have my strength.